I think I have a serious issue with people in organisations. I don't see myself whining too much about my own friends. But when it comes to people in groups, the situation doesn't really work too well for me most of the time.
There's this group that I joined. At first, things were good. Everyone was happy and jolly, as things usually were at the start. Slowly, I do not know why, I started to distant myself from these jolly bunch of good people. Perhaps they were too young and jolly. I started to find them a little too child-like for me to be hanging out with them. Of course I don't expect that we talk about the presidential elections everytime we meet. But to be behaving like secondary school wannabes all the time... Sorry I'll pass. I'm 25 this year.
There's this other group. At first, I was not jolly. Everyone else seemed the otherwise. I was a social misfit every week but slowly things got better after 2 years and a performance trip. Yet recently, I can't help but to feel a bit disappointed. Of course, I don't expect star-like treatment. Who am I to demand that when I'm the worst player. But it's disheartening to find out things by accident, when you thought you're pretty much part of the family.
I work better in small ensembles. Where things a simpler between two or three die-hard buddies. Better if it's not musically related. Musicians are a hard bunch of wackos to deal with. But looking at these two examples, I think it's obvious enough that the problem lies in me. A difficult and aging old man who is jaded and drained.
YK and VC come back soon. The rest of my old friends, you know who you are, meet up soon. .
There's this group that I joined. At first, things were good. Everyone was happy and jolly, as things usually were at the start. Slowly, I do not know why, I started to distant myself from these jolly bunch of good people. Perhaps they were too young and jolly. I started to find them a little too child-like for me to be hanging out with them. Of course I don't expect that we talk about the presidential elections everytime we meet. But to be behaving like secondary school wannabes all the time... Sorry I'll pass. I'm 25 this year.
There's this other group. At first, I was not jolly. Everyone else seemed the otherwise. I was a social misfit every week but slowly things got better after 2 years and a performance trip. Yet recently, I can't help but to feel a bit disappointed. Of course, I don't expect star-like treatment. Who am I to demand that when I'm the worst player. But it's disheartening to find out things by accident, when you thought you're pretty much part of the family.
I work better in small ensembles. Where things a simpler between two or three die-hard buddies. Better if it's not musically related. Musicians are a hard bunch of wackos to deal with. But looking at these two examples, I think it's obvious enough that the problem lies in me. A difficult and aging old man who is jaded and drained.
YK and VC come back soon. The rest of my old friends, you know who you are, meet up soon. .
1 comments:
eh i am feeling very sian leh. listen to me whine?
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